Tailspin. Slowly worsening.On all conceivable fronts. I know I am
excellent in these times, somehow I lack the will. It is there, I just
need to dig deep and find my reasons.I don't want to be saved or need to
be saved. I would have to find my reasons and my truths. Like I did
before. No blame and no worries. I still remember to breathe. I was
right in thinking I was about to do a hard reset on my life. But this
was done on completely different foundations.
Much to my surprise, there was someone who stepped in today. Against the
tide and against all and sundry. This was 2005. In reverse. Now I am at
the receiving end. Funny how life takes you places you thought you knew
already. I write this mainly for you. To say thank you and to show my
appreciation. Although we both know it is I who saves myself, the
thought is most precious now. I wanted to remain quiet and let this pass
like all else when these things happen. I believed I was mostly to blame
anyway. With the amount of half brained nitwits in the world anyway, you
ought to blame yourself if you were smarter. However, I would like you
to not worry about it and extend my gratitude. As I always say, you did
not have to. But you did. It takes a lot to stop and do that. So to
clarify, here is where I stand even if I do not look the part as of the
moment -
Enough with fear. Done with hesitance. Through with insecurities and the
uncertainty of tomorrows. If it is to be then it shall be. So let life
throw its biggest waves and strongest winds. Let the world get torn
asunder. I will be me. I will live my life. And I will be happy.
I am Michael Andrew Martin. Bard. Poet. Corporate Whore. By no means am
I eye candy. By no means am I wealthy. By no means am I powerful. Yet. I
am worth the ride and well worth the wait. I am worth every damn second
you give me, and then some more. I am worth the waking days and worth
finding within reach on shared nights. I am worth every step of the
journey should we decide to undertake it. I am unlike anyone you ever
knew or thought you knew. I am worth sharing your life with. I am Me.
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